Wednesday, August 6, 2008

I Hate Cancer

My heart is breaking and I am so angry, sad, devastated, and
frustrated all at the same time. My sister called today. After months of Chemo, surgeries, and endless trips to Primary Children's, the cancer continues to spread. They are going to bring Alyssa home to spend as much time as she can, surrounded by her family and loved ones.


I hate cancer. I hate that it has the power to take lives. I hate that it alters dreams and hopes of individuals and families. I hate that it has taken over this sweet little girls body, and she can no longer fight it. I hate that it has taken away her agency and her chance to live a long, fulfilling life. I hate that her family and loved ones are going to have to give her that one last kiss. I hate cancer.

Pray for my sister and her family. Pray that they will feel the loving arms of our Heavenly Father and Savior encircle them, strengthen them, lift them up, and give them the comfort and peace they will need. Pray that Alyssa will be comfortable and free of pain. Pray for her sister and brothers. And, would it be too much to ask to pray for a miracle? We love you Lori, David & kids. We love you, Alyssa.

19 comments:

WESTWOOD'S said...

Lisa-I am so sorry that your family has to go through this. That is awful, and I am praying for you and for Alyssa's family. Love ya!!

The Bredensteiners said...

oh lis, i'm so sorry! my heart breaks for you and especially for alyss'a family...we will keep you all in our prayers.

Rae said...

Lisa- I am so sorry to hear! But remember only the Lord has the power to take lives not cancer, and this beautiful little girl doesn't need her full life to pass her test, I must admit I am grateful for that, only sad that your family can't enjoy her sweetness! Iam sorry my comments are not of comfort at the moment. I don't know what I would do if it was one of my boys. Your family and Alyssa are in our thoughts and prayers

Amy B. said...

Sobbing...this is just what we didn't want to hear...Chris can't even read this...we love you and we love Lori and her family so much...I HATE CANCER!!!! I am so sorry!

Lacy said...

that is a heart renching sorry. I have been foolowing Ayless's store from the care page. I am a sister-in-law of Bryce Blackburn and I remember you and all your sister in high school. I so sad to hear this news! I will pray for her and your family because you don't want things to happen like that. It just makes me hurt for David and Lori to give her one last kiss. What a sad thing. I do know that the Lord know what he is putting us through and I hate to say that. I have gone through not being about to have kids and have gone though a lot. I finally had to turn things around and look to the lords side. That is how I i got through it. I can't emagine what they are going through but keep your head high for Lori and david. you are in my prayers.

Blackburns said...

Lisa,

I can't help but cry. We just saw Lori and David a week and half ago. I can't begin to comprehend what they are going through as parents. It was so nice to see them and Alyssa. They are such strong and amazing people. I know that our Heavenly Father loves them and is very mindful of them and I just pray that they will feel His love for them. I am so sorry for all of you. Know that they have been in our prayers from the moment we found out and will continue to be in them. I send my thoughts and prayers and love to all of you.
Emily Blackburn

The Belnaps said...

How do you even begin to cope with the emotional journey they have been through. I can't even imagine being faced with the decision they have had to make. All we can do is trust in our Heavenly Father and be reminded how blessed we are that we can be with our families again. I am in tears reading about sweet Alyssa and with faith, prayer and more faith maybe everyone will get through this heartache. we love you guys and your family.

Unknown said...

Lisa, I am sorry to hear your darling neice isn't doing so well. We totally understand (I think I commented months ago that my nephew has the same cancer). My thoughts and prayers will be with your family--it's hard enough being the aunt, my heart breaks for the parents.

Andrea said...

oh lisa, I am so sorry for you and your family. What a beautiful little girl. Your family will be in our prayers.

Joy said...

Lisa - this is Joy from the ward. My best friend's little boy also battled cancer. I am so devastated for you. I read this a couple of days ago, and I haven't been able to get you and your darling niece off of my mind. There is an experienced herbologist who has cured many people of cancer located right in Wales, Utah. She charges very little for her time. If your sister is interested in taking your niece to her, call my cell phone to get her number. You can get my cell number from Heather G. in the ward. I'm out of town, otherwise I wouldn't be so hard to reach. You and your entire family are in my prayers.

The Tophams said...

Hey Lisa-
Remember us? I hope so, cuz I haven't forgotten how cute you are! I'm so sorry to hear about your cute little niece and her family. I don't even know them, but it makes me want to cry, I can't imagine having a to watch your child go through that. What a special little girl though, you and your niece and family are in our thoughts and prayers.

McAffee said...

Oh guys I'm so sad to hear your family is going through this. Know that you all are in our prayers.
Take Care,
Marie

Lewis Family said...

My sister also lost her little girl this year and I hate the thought that it is happening to your sister. What a sweet blessing it is to have these precious children, even when it is for a small moment. You and your sister's family will be in my prayers.

Lots of Love, Dixie
P.S. It is never too much to ask for a miracle.

The Bredensteiners said...

i think of you and your family everday and pray for peace and comfort for you...love you.

Bryce and Candice Blood Family said...

Alyssa's story is one of the saddest I've ever heard. She is a strong little spirit and how blessed your family is to be the ones to love and support her in her trials. I can't even begin to understand the sorrow that has filled all your hearts but we will continue praying for all of you.

Jim B said...

It is sad to hear of your families trials. We have never met but we are likely related. I would love to find out where we might connect. If you are interested, drop me a follow-up and I should get it in my email

Emily said...

Lisa,

Sorry to hear about the passing of little Alyssa. I can't even imagine what Lori & David are going through as well as the rest of your family. You will all be in our prayers.

I am with you on the hate of cancer. I watched my grandpa go through it earlier this year and I hope that I never have to see anyone else I love go through it.

Emily

Just Us said...

I think your sister would enjoy reading this blog. So tender and beautiful.

http://adailyscoop.blogspot.com/

Praying your family.

Molly Koch said...

my heart is breaking for your sister- and your whole family. it hits a little too close to home for us right now. you might want to read my last 2 entries on my blog. sounds like we are living the same sad story. your family is in my prayers. i know heavenly father will carry you all through this time.